I was inspired this week by Joyce Meyer’s devotion, Love Out Loud. Just reading the title of the daily reading, Truth Precedes Change, I knew it was a God thing.
I’ve spent a good part of my life hiding and allowing others to silence the truth of what was going on. Like when my first husband warned me, “What goes on inside our house is no one else’s business! They don’t need to know what we’re doing.”
Once when I told my mom that I was going to counseling she told me, “Don’t blame it on me!” I thought, “Why would I blame you? Is there something from my childhood that I have forgotten? Should I be worried about remembering it?”
Telling the Truth is Good
I think telling the truth is good, so you can always be in integrity with yourself and others. We want others to tell us the truth, so we should set the example.
My dad was a lawyer so it was hard not telling him the truth, even though I didn’t always do it. Being honest often meant confessing something that I had done – like the time I wrecked his car.
The ski club pulled into the school parking lot around midnight. I was tired so I hopped off the bus, into the car, and put the gear in reverse without even looking behind me. As I started to back up, BAMM! I felt a jolt when the two cars collided. I was embarrassed. Of all the cars to hit, I backed into the principal’s car!
Although I was frightened, I came clean as soon as I walked in the door. Thankfully, dad got everything taken care of. Even if I wanted to hide then, facing my dad was enough to pull the truth out of me. Yup, I couldn’t keep that accident from him, however, he never knew about the time I lost control and hit a small bush on top of an embankment, just missing the telephone pole.
Without Truth There Is No Change
You can’t expect change if you’re not standing in your truth. I know that admitting the truth may be painful, and maybe that’s why I avoided it for so long. But when I was too afraid to stand in my truth, I caused myself more pain just to keep living a lie.
All those years I was lying to myself, to others, and hiding from God. I pretended to have my life all together and didn’t want help from anyone. Yet nothing ever improved until I spoke the truth and came out as Christian gay. Now I am changed for the better. I love myself again, and I am starting to believe that I can really be the difference without a husband or someone else to lean on, which is something I did not believe since I was married the first time. I can do it with God’s help.
Telling the Truth Sets You Free
Had I known that people would accept me and my truth, I probably wouldn’t have married Barry, my second husband. But I don’t regret it because Barry was a good part of my life, and I’m glad I had an opportunity to love him and be loved by him.
So I guess the biggest takeaway I received today from this daily devotion, is that through life we should work at being honest with ourselves so that we can be honest with God. God speaks the truth all the time, even when we don’t want to hear it.
How has telling the truth set you free? Share your thoughts about truth and change.
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