His business or my passion

Deciding to follow through with his business or my passion.

Barry encouraged me to start my own business, six months after he was diagnosed with an incurable cancer. It was a means to get me out of the house, instead of waiting and wondering when he was going to die. With his persistence, I started selling purses. Since he was a natural salesman, I knew with his help, we would do well.

But he didn’t help me. He started another business; one he said would provide residual income for years to come, long after he was gone. I because jealous of it, because I desired to spend as much time as possible with him before he died; and now he was spending it with this company.

As the months went on, I finally offered to go with him to the meetings, but he turned me away. I believe it was because he wanted to do this himself – sort of as a last ditch effort.

And so I never went to a presentation, until after he died. It was then that I understood what he saw in it, and how it would provide for us. So I acquired the home-business via his will.

I slowly learned the system while attending meetings, training and talking to other consultants.  But I still lacked the ability to lead a team – to help others recruit and grow.   Barry was the natural salesman; the social, outgoing man who could talk your ears off. My gifts were with words. I would write messages to friends to introduce them to this company, but only had a few positive responses.

I struggled for almost three years, wondering if I should continue or just throw in the towel. I was afraid of disappointing him (and others), even though he wasn’t here anymore.

With the help of a friend, I realized what was missing! Working this business wasn’t my passion, nor my gift. Sure, helping people save money on a bill they have to have and can’t live without is a great idea. But it wasn’t something I wanted to do for the rest of my life, or actually, do at all.

I had to let it go. I had to release myself from the responsibility of working the business. Yes, he started it for me; and I tried to do it for him, but it wasn’t something I wanted.  Once I let it go, I was at peace with the decision.

My passion, my gift is with words. I am currently working on a dream I’ve had for over thirty years. That is, to write a book filled with experiences from my childhood. It is my hope that others will begin to reminisce, and be willing to share their stories with others.

I sometimes wonder if I wasted those three years working a business that I didn’t love; but I remember the friends I have met along the way, the training which could be applied to any part of life, and the stories I now have to share with others.

We don’t know what tomorrow brings, all we have is today. Make it count. Follow your passion, your gift. Do what you love.

By | 2017-02-26T23:54:00+00:00 March 28th, 2016|Life Experiences, Self-Help|0 Comments

About the Author:

My name is Susan W (sue) Corbran. I am a writer, a Creative Memories consultant, a volunteer in Children's Ministry at my church, and an advocate for widows and gay Christians. I love helping people - whether it is by sharing my stories; consulting with others on how to preserve their most precious memories - photos and ways to tell their stories; or helping children learn about God - and for them to know that He loves them, no matter what! I am a Mom and a Grandma. I love to golf, travel, read, and listen to music (and play the piano and guitar, when available - simple songs!). Oh and I love to write - so be sure to read some of my blogs. I am a co-author of the book Emerge: Real Stories of Courage and Truth, An Amazon Best Seller, 2015, along with The Call to Soar, an Amazon Best Seller, 2016. An author of the ebook Five Simple Ways to Love Gay Christians You Need to Know Now, 2017, and other numerous blogs and articles for magazine contests. This year, 2017, I plan to publish a series of books for young adult (ages 9-14) in the genre of Christian Life. I also hope to publish a book of childhood memories (to share with my grandchildren). My hope is that God willl be praised and glorified by my writing for Him.

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